I remember whispering silently inside my mind “I can’t do this, there is just no way I can do this”. Fear and doubt was slowly overcoming me – I had to take control of myself to avoid failure that I so desperately needed to avoid. Each question seemed to make my heart pound a little harder. As I looked up at the timer and seen that I was slowly running out of time to complete this final exam that would determine if I was ready to “be an adult”. After my test ended I slowly exited the building with my head hanging low, so sure that I had once again failed. Knowing that within just a few minutes I would receive a e-mail that could easily break me into a million pieces weighed so heavy on my mind. My phone alerted me that my test scores were ready. I dreaded to even click the link to view my results but I knew I had to see them whether I liked it or not. “You Passed!” flashed onto my phone – I never in a million years thought this day would come. Tears ran down my face as I realized that my time had finally came.
We often allow fear to control us. It has a way of creeping in when we don’t even realize. Fear can block a blessing in a instant – it’s up to you to stop it.
I began trying for my GED when I was 18 years old. I was so determined when I first started but was easily discouraged when I couldn’t understand the math section of the test.I spent years avoiding attempting it again because I was convinced it would just lead to failure.
So, finally in 2018 I decided I was ready to attempt this again. I passed all of my other parts of my GED test within one month. I was feeling proud and sure of myself. My last test was math and I failed it. I was automatically discouraged and wanted to quit.
I ended up injuring my back and wasn’t able to do anything for a while. BUT I finally decided that 2020 was going to be my year. So, I am proud to say that I am now the proud owner of a GED diploma!
It’s been a long time coming but it’s finally fell into place.Today I got my copy of my diploma in the mail. I screamed when I opened it, I couldn’t believe I was I finally holding it.
Also, today I got a job. A good job, one I can enjoy while I go to college.God is good. He has a way of giving us what we need when we least expect it.If you are like me – a late bloomer. Just know, it’s not too late. You can still be whatever you want to be and you can still do whatever you want to do.Get the diploma, go to college, get the job you want, be who you want, buy the car, buy the house, have a family, make changes – if you want it; just do it! It’s not too late.
Every day is a new chance to start over.